Lowest point of my life.

Probably feelin the worst that i have ever felt. Its been a cocktail of emotions. Just received a Gold Medal for topping my batch but all I can think of is something else. I am not even happy about the medal. Something is seriously wrong. I know wat is wrong but somehow i dont wanna fix it. Will have to go back to serious work from tomorrow. Hopefully that will keep me busy and sane. Signing off!